5090 by FAWM: "Parasite"

Parasite

8 weeks ago by @wondertruly

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Parasite

wondertruly

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Liner Notes

#singersongwriter #acousticonetake #indiepop

Happy Weekend, 50/90ers!

I found out yesterday that an issue with DES deciding they'd overpaid me in my pandemic unemployment is still ongoing, and the news derailed me pretty badly. I couldn't figure out for the life of me why something so small and so out of my hands (I found out at 4pm, basically the end of the business day) was having such a huge effect on me.

After sleeping on it, I decided pathologizing the "why" was not as helpful as addressing the feeling itself, and holding my boundaries with myself to stay hopeful and optimistic, and not succumb to that sticky sense of doom that's so prevalent these days.

I wanted to try something in homage to the style of Ren, who is a FANTASTIC musician whose work deals quite a lot in chronic illness and mental health.

Lyrics

Look, man, I was doing pretty well until you got here
Been feeling pretty stable, been a good year
Been looking out for me and my own

And true, my therapist quit a little bit back
But I’m surprisingly surviving in spite of that
‘Cause I know I’m never truly alone

You’re just a parasite
And I have no room in my brain for you
Please, kindly step aside
I don’t have time to accommodate for you
Ooh, ooh

Look, friend, it’s not my fault you ended up here
Cortisol draining from my left ear
The body really does keep the score

And look! I’m staying medicated on the good shit
Trazodone, Lamictal, and Wellbutrin
Work together to keep me off of the floor

You’re just a parasite
And I have no room in my brain for you
Please, kindly step aside
I don’t have time to accommodate for you
Ooh, ooh

Look, man, I know you came all this way to derail me
Picked up on the scent of being happy
But I gotta send you back where you came

You’re just a parasite
And I have no room in my brain for you
Please, kindly step aside
I don’t have time to accommodate for you
‘Cause I won’t spin around pathologizing why my head’s a mess
You want to hang around, but baby, you just can’t afford the rent
Ooh, ooh

Comments

@lindsaymachine 8w

you just spit those words out so well... i need your enunciation skills! Oof love this world we live in now. Thanks for sharing this.

@rocketgrrrl 8w

Another difficult subject that you cover with creativity and passion. I really like the chorus; it has great lyrics and a great sound. Your vocal slides are fantastic.

@tawny249 8w

Too real. 🙃

Seriously though, the melodic and rhythmic shifts are incredible in this. And you en-un-ci-a-ted all those words in the fast verses so well, I would trip over myself if I tried to do that. This is raw and true and beautiful. I hope life can cut you a break for a while - I know the feeling of being hammered by crap, believe me.

@barkstales 8w

It's really good description of mental health issues. The struggle the journey difficulties to treatment. I like the idea that we really don't have time left in our life feel miserable. Nicely done.

@chipwithrow 8w

Amazing song - catchy and mesmerizing, and I relate to the mental health concerns. Your voice is awesome and gives each word and syllable its due.

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@billwhite51 8w

i love the music and the singing. you put so much melody into your song and its alway a joy to follow where you are going. i think i understand what is going on here but i might be wrong. is it about the irritation one has when people try to become part of your life when they dont understand who you are and what you are dealing with ?

@odilongreen 8w

I like the contrast between the edgy, jagged cadence of the verses and the more languid, flowing feel of the choruses (even though the *lyrical* content of the choruses is even more barbed). It reflects nicely the mood swings that one can experience when trying to deal with an annoying / incompetent bureaucracy. It's a great example of the music matching and reinforcing the message.