Clarity of Mind

by @alyssacrouzetpascal

Liner Notes

#indie_rock #emo #indie_pop #indie #alternative #acoustic #singer_songwriter #girl_with_guitar

Lyrics

I dyed my hair pink cause I was starting to look too much like my mother,
But I did it on a whim so I ended up frying my hair with shitty drugstore bleach
And now my hair is dry and brittle and it feels like straw
So I just assume everyone’s making fun of me

I feel pretty aimless
I spend all my time sitting around, smoking weed in front of the tv.
Trying desperately to numb this pain inside of me.
I’d do anything, anything just to find some relief.

I work evenings at the front desk of a local hotel.
But I have no idea where I’ll be a year from now
Big picture I don’t know
I just need to move out of my parents’ house

And then I’ll figure it out.
Away from the place I was abused and traumatized
I can get some clarity of mind

But I know in a year I’ll still be living at my parents house,
Working the same dead end job with no way out.
I need the space to be able to really find myself
And not be constantly bogged down
By trauma and abuse
If it’s a cycle then I want to break the wheel
But it’s not that simple and I know I’d be a fool to forget that.



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@brisk

This is really lovely, a really song-writerly (it's a word now) song. It feels (though isn't really like in any way) Frank Mills off the Hair musical, just in the sense that it is intimate, and finds it's way into the listener's heart through everyday mundanity. I really rather love it.

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@wolfkier

This is really cool. The angst depicted of course isn't, but you've captured that so well.
And the chordal changes are really interesting, you've thrown the kitchen sink of guitar tricks in there, that makes a brilliant complex counterpoint to the complex feelings your protagonist is dealing wtih.
It's got a kind of lou reed real folks folk feel. I love it. Very well done.

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@sbs2018

“I died my hair pink cuz I was starting to look too much like my mother” - lol! Can so relate! Love the conversational tone of it all. Mrs. Maisel meets coffee house folk singer.